so this is why i picked to write shades of love. I was going through hell before i could even talk or was even born at that mader. so when my mother was pregnant with me she would do drugs. so from the start of my life i was already hooked on drugs. then we bounced around alot when i was younger. i don't really remember all of it because i was so young. when i was 4 years old me my brother blake who is 2 years older than me  and my older sister sierra who is 4 years older than me. us 3 got put into the foster system. we didn't get split up or nothing we got placed with our aunt Jacki and uncle Jim. they had 4 kids of their own Tyler Devin Kayligh and Jaymie. they  were our cousins for a while then when i was about 8-ish years old they adopted us to there family. in 2012 Jacki who i now called my mom was diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer. the doctor told us that she only had 3 months to live and we were all devastated we were going to lose our mom but 3 almost 4 years of painful chemotherapy and Radiation and all of her surgerys. she decided that it was time to go onto hospice. it was not long after that when she slipped into a coma and we all knew that it was time to say our goodbyes. then on December 19th 2016 my mother passed away. after that i thought that god didn't love me anymore even though she still would. i thought that drugs and drinking would be the best option for me to get rid of all of this pain that i was feeling. so then my parents ( dad and step mom) found out that i was doing all of that stuff like drugs and drinking and parting. they thought that the best place for me to be was at lifeline. it is a rehab for kids under the age of 18 so i went there the summer of 2018. so by then i was useong almost every drug in the book. when i was at lifeline my grandmother passed away from dementia (my moms mom) and my grandpa passed away of a heart attack(my dads dad) then that year on december 19th i had to deal with all of those thoughts again and this was the first time that i had been sober for my moms day. to this day i will still cry when i think about my past and my mom. when i wrote this i was balling like a baby. if you have any questions or comments feel free to email me or text me on Wattpad. just look up Desi webb or shades of love 

the picture on the left is me before my sisters reception and the one on the bottom is of me and my favorite niece Kilee